don't know why...

don't know why i feel very lost today...
don't know why i feel very lonely today...
don't know why i feel a bit scare today...
don't know why i feel unhappy today...

it's serious until i have a feel like want to cry...

arrh!!... suddenly i realize something.. i think i am not used to stay alone... (my apartment mate go to her new place tonight)

原来阿凤是耐不住孤单的!!!

A windy Autumn night

It's very windy tonight, heard the temperature will drop 10 degree in the North China start by tomorrow, means it will less than 20 degree(some more is without wind, if it's windy, could be feeling like ~10 degree)

Autumn really showing it's 'power' now, don't play play, put on more cloths!

Back to Dalian

Am back to Dalian now. 1 week had passed, i feel it's really rush rush rush home trip. For next trip, i think i should make it 2 weeks instead.

thanks a lot to you all that trying hard to meet me, although some of it really can't make it this time, but no worries, i will be back again after few months mah ;)

meeting with frends:
- everybody looks good. getting marry, got new car, got more income, expecting baby.. all are happily goes on with their life. i have a small group of frends from secondary school, most of them had child already, so when meet up with them, their topic is now changed to how to keep fit after deliver baby lah, what pil is better to avoid pregnancy lah... i got nothing can 'contribute' to them :p

meeting with family:
- to be honest, my family doesn't seems going very well. father is sick here and there.. brother/sister's business not running very good, blah blah blah.. all kind of 'internal affair'

anyway, it's good trip for me.

c u all later in few months, i might not go back for CNY, could be around march/april/may, not sure yet

i'm disappointed with ur country

today a Chinese colleague come to me and ask:"is ur country so bad? how come they made such statement that Malaysian Chinese as squatters , i am really disappointed and angry with such statement"

tell me what can i say to them, to the China Chinese...

surprise why they know about that? it's bcoz it's reported in the local paper.
can u imagine the impact? as a Chinese, i won't like to invest to this kind of country; as a tourism, i won't like to visit this kind of country.. can't these manuasia use their brain to do real work, instead of talking shit that bring no good to anyone??!

i am disappointed and angry as well, just dont understand how come idiot can be survive in this world, and yet has power, has money, has supporter, u tell me why lah